been working on another template.. don noe whether to change or not.. both are rox..

Reached home about an hour ago.. din expect to be so late.. stupid junyuan, had to wait for him to eat chicken rice at some shit place. The woman there din't even know how to chop chicken properly, still can sell.. sigh, the world these days.. met fabian first, went pastamania for dinner.. was a bad experience. spent too much $$. the food tasted too bland. then that stupid tiny dessert was so fricking tiny, i could finish it in one mouthful.. and to think it looked so good on the menu.. should have known.. then went some shady area to pool.. walked all the way from orchard to past dhoby gaut just to pool.. and the tables there were so bad. din noe why we went there... Also, pool has a different meaning for me now.. actually felt sad pooling, cuz... sigh. u should know... Anyway, was there till around 830+ i think, lost track of time.. hated that place.. Damn, din do any work today.. I am screwed, considering i'll be out the whole day tomorrow too.. well, schoolwork can hmmm.. Oh yes, while walking along orchard road today, i saw for the 3rd time the gang of punks.. those with the heavily gelled punk hair and screwed-up clothing. i mean, i've seen enough of them, sheesh.. like screw off, don seek attention like that..
jiaqing, how dare u steal my line.. (it's not easy to be me).. arrgh.

Yep, had a good training this morning.. thoughi stretched some muscle i think, and it killed me throughout the session.. nvrmind, was otherwise fine.. things are getting better, with 9 ppl turning up for training.. hope things will improve.. Woa, the bus driver today was really mad.. he like almost killed how many ppl..like he was driving an 18-wheeler or something.. Anyway, reached home couple of hours ago, and will be leaving shortly for town to meet friends.. muz say we're very good friends. i mean, we even sneaked into school together after grad dinner last year to spend the night in ri.. real fun... haha, wonderful memories.. still cant forget how we tricked elangor(the security guard). later.

Just wondering.. Anyone tried sticking the thermometer up the ass?

Jasmeet was singing the barney(the purple dinosaur) song during chem prac yesterday..
Quote Parvin "i wanna stick a bomb into barney's ass, and watch it blow up.."

I love this game.

Played basketball for 5 hours from 1 to 6 today...was really good.. i mean, seldom do we have a gathering of so many good players.. Just realised that there are a lot of good players who are in other ccas... shit. If we have them, we would rock.. But guess it's a different thing altogether playing for fun and for serious. My life is all about bball now i think..

Wah, today in school was quite fun... Like during PW, we talked cock almost the whole way... Haha, damn fun. and funny. Cuz ken da pro wrote out the school song in chinese.. damn fricking amusing. So much so that me lee was laughing like mad.. it's a sight.. him laughing, he has a strange laughter(sorry, mr lee)... haha, really fun stuff..

Cool, it's been a good day.

Suddenly feeling unwelcome again.. guess i'm easily hurt.. dislike it when ppl don care about how others feel.. guess if i don say it, they wou;dn't know.. heck.. anyway, it just doesn't feel good.

Must say i've made progess since that day last week. Yes, it's been a week liao... still not easy, but making progress.. and will continue to try, hard though it may be.. Getting a life already.. Trying to spend more time with my classmates, the guys.. cuz we really rox.. feels good to be with them.. really. that's just the way it is.. So, to all those concerned, i'm getting on my feet again.. probably deserve something for it.. anyway, just don hurt me anymore k..

On with my life, today's maths tutorial was so fun it deserves a mention.. i mean like, it was jsut great.. maybe the teacher struck lottery or something.. but was only like half hour lesson.. Well, the rest of the day is still pretty much boring.. really slept thru chem lect today.. it was a good rest. like the four of us in a row were all sleeping.. i looked to my left and saw 3 heads on the table.. amusing. we'll cope. Oh yah, council invest today was so funny.. seen nothing like it.. damn amusing stuff.. like ppl look at su hao also can laugh.. that loser.. great stuff.. really want to start enjoying my days in school.. if that is possible.. it depends alot on bball elections.. hopes are high..

Anyway, may want to go watch bball again tomolo.. can't believe this.. still no bball overload.. guess it'll never happen, cuz it's really a big part of my life.. it gets me going and keeps me up.. it really does. can't live without it, like some other things..

Yes, i was just thinking about jc life, and life in general. Like, i mean, what you see is not what you get... sometimes.. And also, i feel that ppl in jc are generally hypocritical.. forgive me for saying this, but that's what i've been feeling since i came to jc.. not juz rj i think.. it's maybe at this age.. but still it's sad..that's no excuse for screwing around.. The sad parts of life.

Wow, had some sort of bball elections today.. results will be known next mon.. can't believe i'll settle for v-capt.. anyway, juz want to play ball, why do ppl want to be capt.. guess it's really cool, and also, no one remembers the vice-captains, only the captain... but heck, better than nothing.. we just like wrote down 3 names on a slip of paper.. so basketball style, which is damn crappy stuff.. Anyway, went nie again to watch bball.. girls vj vs rj.. as expected, rj won comfortably.. no.7 daisy rox.. she's good. and watched rj guys get whipped by hcjc.. those guys are too fast.. we've got to do something about it cuz we'll be facing them next year..

Well, feeling much better today.. sorta of settled and ended some stuff.. about time too... i'll have to move on.. and stop being an ass. I'm a new man.

It's a hard thing, to love and forget someone.

Still can't decide whether to go watch bball tomolo, and then end up missing half of training.. damn, don want to miss first official training.. will decide tmr..

I'll be around,
only if you want me to
be there by your side.
So when you think it's time
I'm ready for you.

Some time back, Dhruv was playing reversi on my fone.. then he suddenly said like "Shit, is there an undo button?" Well, sometimes i wish there were an undo button in life... undo the mistakes made.. so life might be better. But then, life would have no meaning then i suppose.

Yeah, another day done.. still dazy stuff.. not knowing wat i'm doing. I really don't know how i'm getting thru these days.. amazing. Glad to have friends who care.. reason why i'm alive.. Anyway, maths test today was not bad.. cept i forgot to complete doing the MI question.. damn, dunnoe wat other stupid mistakes i made.. like if i don do well for maths, i might as well forget the other subjects.. serious..

Looking forward to training tomolo.. think it's finally official already.. but still no coach yet, better i think for now.. don't want to think what the turnout will be like.. Really, nothing to look forward to these days..

Just finished studying for maths, if you can call that studying.. anyway, hope to do well tomorrow to prove ms chia wrong... she starting to get on my nerves.. like she having contant pms or something.. anyway, think i'm more normal today.. or trying to be... trust me, i'm trying.. evrybody's trying.. hope i don't get on other pple's nerves myself... So, sorry if i'm ya...

Planned to study after sch today.. but as usual was distracted and went to play basketball.. real cool, then went to some holland void deck to play floorball, 8 ppl, not a bad turnout at all.. yeah, then had to run back to sch and kena cramp on the way.. but i really din noe that the two of them were waiting for me!!! sorry arh... waited a fricking, ok, fucking long time for the darn bus.. should have got a cab, but i really can't afford to spend too much liao... i'm not a rich kid.. haha, anyway, went wheelock sakae sushi for dinner with sabrina, lydia, jiaqing and alvin... was good... but it really hurt me when she was eating the soy-sauced-filled watermelon.. haha.. like don kill urself.. anyway, yah, shouldn't stress other pple liao... so, should get a life soon...

Training will be officially starting now.. wed and sat for now... really looking forward to it.. yeah.. need to train up my skills..

I really hate hating myself.

Whoa, not in da mood for anything.. got natfa tmr morning.. but still have to play floorball with sec4 classmates tomolo evening.. like got maths test on tue.. wat am i doing?? but well, maths test so what.. doesn't matter.. nothing does..

Actually, i'm feeling that bit better. But i have the feeling i'm just bottling up my emotions.. would be ugly if i exploded... hope it doesn't happen.. i really don see anything which can help me get out of this.. God help me... He's what keeping me barely humane..

Hallelujah

Went to guo hui's church today.. quite a different experience, considering switching over... but will miss holy trinity church if i do.. i mean, i sorta grew up in that church.. tho not so close but still it's something special yeah.. Anyway, got inspired by his driving, he juz got his licence and he gets to drive a merc.. damn, feel the urge to learn quickly next year.. (someone, remember saying something bout learning drivin' together.. haha) Anyway, it's really cool, like he overtakes on the inside lane, amusing.. can't believe we went tampines mall just to eat at kfc.. stupid really.. ha

Yup, should get a life again. I'll take ur advice.. still feeling off.. it's a foreign feeling, no one should be allowed to feel this way man... damn. still confused and weak..
If i have to empty the beaches, it's like i just picked up a grain of sand today... if u get wat i mean... it's really tough... tough stuff
i think i'm trying to distract myself from thinking about that.. doing other stuff.. it really hurts i have to tortue myself like this..

God bless me and my loved ones.